warring halves

i dunno how many times i need to go through this ritual of deliberating over choices. and choosing is tough when i'm sadly bound by reality. i know instinctively the offer is not right when i have to kill so many braincells thinking through this...

oh the omni-mighty one(s), pls turn on your most powerful headlights and show me a bright path by early next week. it's all that i ask for as the stars and moon align to mark my earthly arrival.

想通了, 就好

Compromise is sometimes a dirty word but life does not revolve around me alone. My dream is still mine and me to fight for so if compromising now means I get to learn the crafts I've been wanting to learn, go the places I've been hoping to go, and provide for the folks I'm obliged to support, it seems not a bad deal.

However, it's not easy coming round to accept a lesser choice, at least for me. The rational mind constantly fights with the idealistic soul. I'm grateful I could still entertain thoughts of trying out for the ideal. The cleaner uncle at Maxwell Food Centre couldn't. He wore baggy pants not to strut fashionista hip-hop style. He tied oversized shoes over his ankles with rubber bands not for experimental anti-slip soles as thought of by my so creative dad.

Thanks for this occasional life's little lesson. It's one of those reminders I need now and then to wake me from unnecessary despair.

My Top 10 Korean Leading Men: #9

Korean Cutie #9:

Lee Dong Wook

Wooed me over in My Girl

Pi's Sizzling Meter:

His Wiki page here.

Wookie is perhaps one of the few guys I wouldn't mind in cardigan. Starting off as a model, his good looks glams up the television screen, especially in the funny comedic hit - My Girl. Even the dowdy looking Father-Mother show on Channel U now gets a bit interesting whenever he appears :D He's been missing in action from the small screen for a while and the recent bad choices with movie scripts are not helping to move his career. I'm looking forward to another hit from this pretty face. Btw, did I say I think he has sexy lips?

My Top 10 Korean Leading Men: #8

Korean Cutie #8:

Rain (Bi)




Bewitched by his smile in Full House

Pi's Sizzling Meter:


His wiki page here.

Rain has the bod that makes bren (and presumably many other gals) drool. Though I'm not obsessed over flesh and flash - you know those naked top stunts that evoke screams and dreams - Rain lack of typical good look is indeed made up for with his build. His killer weapon, in my case, is his smile. That silly grin he often spots in Full House are toothpaste-ads worthy. To top it up, his hardworking attitude completes a great celeb personality.

I still can't fly

I wish I hadn't had hope, only to be crushed
I wish I could scream, instead of just weep
I wish I could run, but my power was drained

driving miss pipi

I've been cursed behind the wheels. It's amazing how I could have flunked driving so many times given that I really drive quite well... haha.... As usual, I believe it's destined and I'm feeling very zen about the entire attempt and decided that I shouldn't use driving to delay my other development plans. So photography and music - here I come!!! The only hurdle to clear now is landing my stable source of revenue and I'll be off to action on my to-do list.

On a side saga pertaining to driving, I'm disappointed that things turned sour with that idiotic, petty, shortie-fatso. I could go on with this demeaning list but as I'm nearing nirvana, I actually feel sympathetic towards this person who looks anytime a potential victim of bursting arteries. Somehow I also feel delivered having made the decision not to see this fatso anymore and this positivity alone offsets any letdown I might have experienced from my unfortunate test outcome in far greater effect than I've thought.

This coming week promises great excitement as I venture upon events and decisions that can be life-changing. GYM, I hope you'll answer my prayers as recited to you during my recent visit. Macau or Taipei - wait for me!!!

I want to take photos like Ashin

I can't believe how talented Mayday is. I mean I can believe cos Mayday is my idol afterall and as most of you know, me and my 美女friends are not into blind faith. By the way, since I'm on 美女, let me introduce you to the new titles I've bestowed upon some pals. XY is named 亮眼啵蜜美少女, Geok is 亮丽俏鼻美少女, Minty is 另类丰唇美少女. I am........... *drum roll please*................................ 宇宙无敌美少女!!! I know it's befitting, thanx ;p

Back to my very talented Mayday. Lead vocalist Ashin doesn't only write and compose well. He takes great photos too + has great design sense. Monster is good-looking and this is what I consider a talent oredi, and needless to say (but still must say), he's great on the guitar. Masa makes a good bassist + back-up vocalist and of cos, his impressive English that bridges Mayday with music guys from around the world. I'll not elaborate on the 2 married fellows.

Seeing how talented my idols are, I'm very motivated to stretch myself further in realising my potential. Not that I want to boast, I define what it means by "Singapore Got Talent", albeit my crafts being all half-hatched, and waiting to burst out of the cocoon. Once I clear driving out of the way, I'm going to venture into a series of skills-honing programme:
1) photography
2) music classes
3) Korean + Japanese languages
4) tour guide course
5) baking

I'm determined to live my life as fulfilling as possible before I'm past the 'youth' age category. And don't think I'm just writing a space-filling entry. This post got deep meaning ok! :
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IT'S GOOD TO HAVE AN IDOL.