this blog is taking a break

this may seem a bit redundant, given that i haven't been posting much this year. i am taking a long break from blogging and may most likely cease to post anything here henceforth. one of the reasons being my inability to reconcile with how different the existential selves (note the plurality) of the same person can be portrayed online and in reality. A bigger factor is my lack of time these days.

in any case, the best way to keep in touch is to buzz me or email me or ask me out for dinner!

take care :)

10 reasons i should quit my job

before i start the ranting, there is no reason why i should have a come-back blog entry on a negative note. life's been great during my online absence from this space - in fact i was living one of my most fulfilling times. for this, i want to make that entry special. for now, something to fill blogspace while i'm inspired!

reason #1:
because i want to help my employer save resources - the electricity i use, the water i flush, the drinks i made, the free medical cosultation i get eat into the company's account i know.

reason #2:
because i could put my time to better use - planning fruitful lessons for my students, cleaning the house, sipping afternoon tea, making big business plans.

reason #3:
because i see no cute guys here, except for the cutie at the lift lobby whom i've met only twice and don't even know where exactly he works.

reason #4:
because i have no allies to miss when i'm gone - yea rite, i have no friends here, just colleagues. and i intend to keep it this way.

reason #5:
because i cannot stand my potential going to waste for being put on a regression path doing simple no-brainer tasks that absolutely baffle me with its over-rated complexity.

reason #6:
because i cannot, simply cannot stand the slut's irritatingly whining voice so much so that it's a pierce through my eardrums each time she speaks.

reason #7:
because i don't want to work with an idiot who constantly struggles with fixing her print and page set-up though she's been selling printer for gawd knows how many years.

reason #8:
because i don't want to lower standard by marvelling over print quality that is supposedly sub-par by my understanding.

reason #9:
because i hate having to look behind my back constantly when i use all my time in the office doing personal work.

reason #10:
because at the core of reason 1 to 9, i cannot stand being passionless at what i'm doing with my heart and mind often tied to an exciting career i've since developed elsewhere.

and after all that's been said, i'll stick to this till i hit 30 and make careful plans along the way to ease out of this painful cycle. i sux at job-holding... lol!

I Said No to IBF

This is my final decision. When decision on taking the job hinges upon a mere extra $100 on the salary package, I know I won't be too happy even if I got my way. Anyway, they won't up and I won't budge. Not meant to be, don't want to be, so don't let it be.

I feel weight has been lifted off and true to what XY said, perhaps it's because I stick to my guts. Of course there's still the life pocket money issue which is temporarily relieved with my teaching assignments. And if I may see the signs, those assignments come to me fairly easily because the higher beings know I'll need them till the right offer comes along.

No looking back now, 'cept to keep the faith and keep trying.

The Best is Yet to Come

300906. I packed up and left the attic with the help of friends. It doesn't take a rocket scientist nor a super psychic to figure out why I chose the date. (You mean you dunno??!!)

Changing paths is not easy though not a big deal and it's necessary. I'm glad I have the lucidity of mind to do it then despite I'm still not getting anywhere one year on.

Life over the last year is at best enlightening but ironically entrapping. The long vacation didn't bring me a Kimura but it gave me enough time and space to think through what I need to do next to reach where I want to be later. It's great to have dreams; not very nice when the mysterious hands at work are not cooperating. I've to admit I'm running out of patience, sinking into angst and possibly disillusion. Ok, maybe not this bad since knowing myself, it only takes one big positive thing to send me to cloud nine again.

While this cycle of ups and downs is expected to last a lifetime for hot-blooded folks like me, I couldn't say my thoughts better than Mayday's "我". One of my favourites among my many other favourite Mayday numbers that I cried listening to it sometimes. I'm such a sap.

And how could I end this birthday entry without well-wishes? May the folks at home and friends around me be safe and healthy always - your well-being really means a lot to me. May I realise what I want to do, step-by-step and not missing one. May the career option I so desire happen very soon.

Happy 29th.

我 / 词+曲:阿信


还记得　小时候　作文簿上的志愿
那天真　的幻想　如今都到哪裡躲藏?
走出网咖凌晨的三点鐘　飆过天堂世纪帝国直达战慄时空
看不见的世界裡　我是英雄　
然后回到没有目标的活著　在现实中
oh my god, oh my god who am I ? 我的外号是　嘴上乔丹
oh my god, oh my god who am I ? 座右铭是　我混故我在
也曾开心的耶耶耶　也有失落的我我我
蝴蝶飞出了潜水鐘　我却还在原地停留
留不住时间耶耶耶　总是后悔的我我我
我不要一生就这样　到最后一生就这样　这样的我
这样的　勇敢的我　单纯的我　复杂的我　冷的我　热的我
无聊的我　懒惰的我　总是怀疑的我
讲了不听　听了不做　做又做不好的我
买一个梦　五十块钱的梦　期待五百万分之一的奇蹟降落
从此以后　想要什麼　喜欢什麼　就有什麼
但是我的人生还可以　努力　追求　什麼
Have you ever wanna be a spaceman?
Have you ever wanna be a president?
Or you're still a daydreaming maker?
Have you ever wanna be wanna be wanna be wanna be

warring halves

i dunno how many times i need to go through this ritual of deliberating over choices. and choosing is tough when i'm sadly bound by reality. i know instinctively the offer is not right when i have to kill so many braincells thinking through this...

oh the omni-mighty one(s), pls turn on your most powerful headlights and show me a bright path by early next week. it's all that i ask for as the stars and moon align to mark my earthly arrival.

想通了, 就好

Compromise is sometimes a dirty word but life does not revolve around me alone. My dream is still mine and me to fight for so if compromising now means I get to learn the crafts I've been wanting to learn, go the places I've been hoping to go, and provide for the folks I'm obliged to support, it seems not a bad deal.

However, it's not easy coming round to accept a lesser choice, at least for me. The rational mind constantly fights with the idealistic soul. I'm grateful I could still entertain thoughts of trying out for the ideal. The cleaner uncle at Maxwell Food Centre couldn't. He wore baggy pants not to strut fashionista hip-hop style. He tied oversized shoes over his ankles with rubber bands not for experimental anti-slip soles as thought of by my so creative dad.

Thanks for this occasional life's little lesson. It's one of those reminders I need now and then to wake me from unnecessary despair.

driving miss pipi

I've been cursed behind the wheels. It's amazing how I could have flunked driving so many times given that I really drive quite well... haha.... As usual, I believe it's destined and I'm feeling very zen about the entire attempt and decided that I shouldn't use driving to delay my other development plans. So photography and music - here I come!!! The only hurdle to clear now is landing my stable source of revenue and I'll be off to action on my to-do list.

On a side saga pertaining to driving, I'm disappointed that things turned sour with that idiotic, petty, shortie-fatso. I could go on with this demeaning list but as I'm nearing nirvana, I actually feel sympathetic towards this person who looks anytime a potential victim of bursting arteries. Somehow I also feel delivered having made the decision not to see this fatso anymore and this positivity alone offsets any letdown I might have experienced from my unfortunate test outcome in far greater effect than I've thought.

This coming week promises great excitement as I venture upon events and decisions that can be life-changing. GYM, I hope you'll answer my prayers as recited to you during my recent visit. Macau or Taipei - wait for me!!!

I want to take photos like Ashin

I can't believe how talented Mayday is. I mean I can believe cos Mayday is my idol afterall and as most of you know, me and my 美女friends are not into blind faith. By the way, since I'm on 美女, let me introduce you to the new titles I've bestowed upon some pals. XY is named 亮眼啵蜜美少女, Geok is 亮丽俏鼻美少女, Minty is 另类丰唇美少女. I am........... *drum roll please*................................ 宇宙无敌美少女!!! I know it's befitting, thanx ;p

Back to my very talented Mayday. Lead vocalist Ashin doesn't only write and compose well. He takes great photos too + has great design sense. Monster is good-looking and this is what I consider a talent oredi, and needless to say (but still must say), he's great on the guitar. Masa makes a good bassist + back-up vocalist and of cos, his impressive English that bridges Mayday with music guys from around the world. I'll not elaborate on the 2 married fellows.

Seeing how talented my idols are, I'm very motivated to stretch myself further in realising my potential. Not that I want to boast, I define what it means by "Singapore Got Talent", albeit my crafts being all half-hatched, and waiting to burst out of the cocoon. Once I clear driving out of the way, I'm going to venture into a series of skills-honing programme:
1) photography
2) music classes
3) Korean + Japanese languages
4) tour guide course
5) baking

I'm determined to live my life as fulfilling as possible before I'm past the 'youth' age category. And don't think I'm just writing a space-filling entry. This post got deep meaning ok! :
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IT'S GOOD TO HAVE AN IDOL.

My Cuties List is Taking a Break

Seriously with Coffee Prince filling my head all the time over the last few days, I can't imagine myself gushing over other men for now. It's kinda exciting that I'm catching this super hot Korean drama almost 'real-time' as it airs in Korea. Thank gawd for internet and computer, it's gotta be the greatest invention of all time!!! Thank goodness for fan-subs, they gotta be the most generous people around!!! Thank all those kind souls for uploading as soon as they can, I wonder how they find all the time and bandwidth!!! I can't wait to rewatch the entire series again after I've landed my hands on the VCDs. CP is such great dope that I've neglected my love for Why Why Love - I can't believe I'm not a tad excited that the VCDs are finally all out :S

I'll do a rank and review of my Top 5 Korean dramas after CP ends its run on 28 Aug and I'm crossing my fingers that the last 3 eps live up to expectation so that my love for it thus far comes full circle to a great finale. You know lar, there are a lot of sucky endings these days that spoil it all - especially those TVB dramas. Ask XY, she knows best.

Btw, I'll like to warn all potential antagonisers that I've got a few pet peeves so try not to push the wrong buttons with me these days when I'm not in the best of moods:

1) Don't take me for granted as a walking encyclopedia. Yea, I'm resourceful but dun ask me something as though I should know and expect answers like I should be responsible for knowing. I REPEAT, I'M NOT PIPIPEDIA.

2) Don't ask me anything only to refute what I think or insist on your opinion. When asked, I always try to give my 1/2cent worth. You can take or leave it but you shouldn't doubt the 'quality' of my answers. I normally tell it as how I see it, whatever that falls short is an issue of your own expectation or preference.

3) Lastly, respect my likes and dislikes but I dun need any superfluous 'sucking up' by trying to identify with my likes.

Wun name examples of incidents here. I'm not touchy-feely, just testy over how lacking in consideration some people can be.

The First Shop of Coffee Prince

Life is a series of fortunate events, with one more major issue to settle before I can sprint on full force for the next peak. More on this later. Got much at hand to do.

A quick one to intro those who haven't heard about this latest K-drama hit from me. I like it very much and rank its watchability in the league of My Lovely Sam Soon and Full House. The narrative was done in a subtly different way from the usual K-dramas I've seen and I thought the pacing is brilliant.

The 1st Shop of Coffee Prince: Yoon Eun Hye was good as tomboyish Eun Chan and the two male leads just grow on me. The guy with the nerdy specs can be quite a turn-on too...hahaha!

The 8th episode has just been aired in Korea and the series should end in late August. So DVDs should arrive in-store some time in Sep / Oct I suppose. I'll get them for keep (despite having been following this on Tudou) or friends can get me TS' vouchers for my birthday ;-)

Btw, I've given up on the Jap show I mentioned earlier after the first ep. No time! The day passes real fast when you're in a routine. It's usually work, home, dinner, 1-hour of online teevee, then get down to my readings, then maybe a bit of blogging and chatting, then zzzzz by 2am...

Something about Nothing

I've been quite clueless and inspirationless over what to write about these days. I can't even put in words nicely how I'll gush over Mayday (and more Mayday). Nor can I pen that "10 Things Friends Should NEVER Bao-toh on Me" article just yet till I feel I've regained my wicked stroke of genius. So this is what you get from a useless once-in-a-bluemoon good writer like me today - a mere update of sorts.

I've been reading quite a bit of onedayinmay. Absolutely fantastic blog by a Mayday fan based in Canada. She writes well too! Check out her other sites, such as a Mayday lyrics translation site and her travel adventure in East Asia blog. I'm in awe of her translation, I mean that sort of dedication and background researching is deserving of my 'kowtao' ok!

While I haven't regained my writing prowess, there are quite a few who lined up to ask of favours such as looking through their cover letters and resumes and better yet, help them EDIT and IMPROVE. Seriously, I gotta start charging for this man. It's getting on my nerves. These are favours I do good frens (maybe as per Bren's suggestions, I shall start issuing PRIVILEGE CARDS to those who are entitled to seek my 'professional expertise' freely). How shall I charge the rest? Suggestions welcome.

I've also been spending time catching up with Asian popular culture. This is perhaps the ONLY arena which makes me champion among friends now. What do you expect of a jobless bum who can only pray someone has some sense to spot her talents and recruit her soon? Anyway, I'm done with Taiwanese drama Summer X Summer, featuring my fave drama cutie for now ~~ JOE CHENG! He has a dog named PP in the show and he said PP has a special place in his heart.....hahaha......*dreamy eyes*. Lead actress Wu Xiong did a passable job but her lazy-tongued Chinese irritates me quite a bit. That said, Joe's L and Rs are all in a mess too but he more than made up for it by looking good and acting cute. HAHAHAHAHA!

I've also finished Corner with Love. 小猪can act, production is good, script is well-written but.....the lack of raw bursts of energy sometimes makes it less memorable than say Hana Kimi, It Started with a Kiss, Meteor Garden etc etc. I guess I always prefer dramas with school setting. Being young is so fun! Corner with Love is adulty love. I'll say worth watching though it gets really draggy towards the last parts. However, the classic hokkien poem in epi8 more than make up for any dragginess! As for Summer x Summer, it's a light show that's worth catching too despite its less ideal ratings in Taiwan! Not draggy and 2nd lead Ruan Jing Tian looks great.

Now I'm heels over Why Why Love 换换爱 (dun ask me what's with that crappy English title), with the very diabetically sweet duo - Mike He and Rainie Yang. You'll swoon at Kingone's new look too! I give his makeover 2 thumbs-up compared to his image in Devil Beside You. This is fun to watch and it drives me nuts that I can only catch it once a week on Youtube since this has started airing in Taiwan only on 3rd June! TS - pls bring in the DVDs quick!!!

If you'll like to watch the above 3 shows I've mentioned and you're leading a pre-prince Cinderella life like me, I recommend u watch them free on Youtube, Crunchyroll or VEOH. I am very grateful to fans from around the world who uploaded the videos (some even subbed it!) and actually made a boring life like mine very colourful.

I can't believe Taiwan has so many hot cuties guys that even a VERY GOOD LOOKING one has to make do with being a 2nd or 3rd lead in the dramas. Look at pathetic Singapore. Our cutie actors population is in such sorry state that we're still talking about 'saving' Christopher Lee from further imprisonment. Oh yes, even a more decent looker like Chris is imported lor!

Heads-up on what's up for me:

1) I've taken the unofficial role of Bren's singing competition coach. She's gonna sing "Eyes On Me", her best song when we did a run-through during the last KTV session. Everybody cheer for her!

2) Free meals awaiting me. Yoohoo! *Muaks* to all those who have collected bonus, found new job or simply feel like giving me a treat :D

3) Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows akan datang. The final instalment of the 7 books. Finally, our journey with Harry, Ron and Hermione is coming to an end. You know this mixed feeling of excitement and wistfulness that you're nearing that something you've been looking forward to and it'll also mark a closure to a chapter? :(

Woah........! My something about nothing has added up to quite something! Maybe the blogging bug is back.

Before I Turn 30

I'm not in the best of moods recently. Last Friday, my system went cranky and I ended up having bouts of diarrhea, nausea attacks worsened by a fever that gave me cold feet and a hot bod. So that lasted through the weekend. The good side of things was an uncalled-for detox that flushes waste out and refuses an excessive intake of food. I had only 2 meals for the last few days and can't eat more than 1/2 bowl of solid carbo cos it gives me bloated tummy. I certainly hope this leads to weight loss. Maybe, I'll turn anorexic again ;-p

An unexpected guest also joined in the detox party. My dayima arrived, causing some upheaval within, on top of detoxing waste blood. Now I dun know if it's the cramps that's twitching or the bloatedness that's pumping discomfort on the walls of my stomache. Ok, whatever.

This post is supposed to be on what I want to achieve before I turn 30. And the most important step to achieving all the rest that I want to achieve, starts with (as advised by ol' wise Minty).............................TADANG!!! ~ Keeping the same job for the next 2 years!!! This bears no significance for a lot of people but it means a lot to me. The safest route to upping my savings start with having a stable income since I don't forsee myself striking toto anytime soon. With better savings, there are quite a few things I wanna do and I shall limit the list to just 3 feats:

• visit Japan
• learn a musical instrument
• pick up tour guide or photography course.

And I still have my 'Before I turn 29' list to complete, which is first and foremost passing my driving *gasp*...

Before I go, some photos taken during days on the run:

The photos that kids from Born Into Brothels had taken really put me to shame. There were so much colour and stories to tell in each of the images. This docu incidentally marks my first "solo" cinematic experience.

p/s for Bren: stop calling me Blueberry 嘴巴! It's all your fault that I paraded around Vivo with blueberries all over my lips!!

Machi Didi

My mamahood started 21 years ago on this day when a new bundle of joy arrived at home. I was 8 then and didn’t even know what labour pain feels like (anyway, I still dunno). But I picked up what a mum with a new born ought to know – preparing milk, changing diapers, cleaning the baby’s butts after poo…ok, before this entry turns out to be a Mother’s Day tribute to myself, let me introduce you to the F5 of the exceptional Chee family – my one and only DIDI who is everything his jiejie is not.

Under my care and upbringing, Didi has tasted all that nature has to offer, from poo to urine and the papayas plucked from the tree that flourished with the fertilizer that his rich excretion provided. While I’m sorry that I mistakenly served my poor Didi his virgin piss to quench his thirst on that fateful day many many years back, I must admit I’m not exactly remorseful that this has become a perennial joke amongst the Chees and our friends. Brudder, Jiejie knows you won’t be angry ;-)

The one thing I was really sorry about to this day was the one time I shouted through your ear while smacking you with the rotan for irritating the hell outta me when I was trying to catch some sleep. If your hearing was not as good as a result of this incident, Jiejie says A VERY BIG SORRY and bestows upon you an eternal amnesty for all (well, almost) the wrongdoings that you might make along the way.

I’m also apologetic for having ever doubted our blood relations. You can’t blame me cos you are everything against the family trend – you are skinny no matter how much you eat (do you know how exasperating that is for me?), you are ‘normal’ by normal standards with no nutty idiosyncrasy that your pa, ma and jie displayed and you don’t look like anyone of us – you are good-looking that even the aunty from 9th floor thinks you are F4 standard and the photographer of our family portrait thought you look like a rich brat from ACS! This said, I’m not suggesting that your jie pales in comparison with regards to the looks department. :p

This sounds clichéd but time really flies. I thought it was only yesterday that we pillow-fought, raced against each other with me proclaiming myself the champion all the time cos my legs were indeed longer than yours back then, watched Forrest Gump at Chinatown Point cinema together (and you asked me so many questions after the movie cos you didn’t understand) and shouted at each other every time I tried tutoring you that ma decided to send you to tuition class instead. Today, you walk faster than me, talk lesser than me, eat more than me and still shit more productively than me.

Now that we are both grown-ups, you beat me to several things like having a girlfriend (yes I know you’re attached ok) before the right guy can find me and I dare you to marry before your ah-jie settles down. You had won a prize at an open design competition when I had landed zilch despite being so talented. You bought me such an expensive gift during my last birthday when I haven’t gotten you anything so expensive to date (even on your 21st hatchday) cos I’m embarrassingly out of job again. Best of all, you stay firmly grounded and reliable unlike your sister who is in constant airy-fairy pursuit.

Happy birthday WeeWee! Thanks for being the brother that you are. You know I love you so. It would have been unimaginable to go through the last 21 years as the only child of this unbelievable family.

My grandaunt prayed for me

I quote, verbatim, from the grandaunt who prayed so sincerely for me just before I left her house just now:

"In the name of our father jesus christ, please bless Ah Imn at her job with good salary and may it be stationery. Please protect her from the evil spirits and demons. Thank you oh lord. Amen."

I nearly burst out laughing when she prayed for my job being 'stationery'. Yea, I need that. Why are people around me so prophetic these days? And if you don't know, my grandaunt (por-por's elder sista) has been bedridden for 2 years now, and a lot of times she goes into delirium (today she claimed she has bought another bungalow for the family). So she makes damn alot of sense in this customised prayer for me, u know?

By the way, I'm not a big fan of jesus christ but this is nice lar.

Things I’ve Left Behind

One pair of flip-flops that was placed adjacent to mine

Two roomfuls of pride that once resided at the attic

Three keys that led to the space that I proudly call my own

Four storey of climb that never really helped slim me down

Five months of sporadic work at places which couldn’t hold me back a little longer
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Mutiny on a Bounty

I know by now the rate at which I move in and out of a job is giving the false impression that my actual profession is perhaps job-hopper and not a communicator :p

Eh, please don't be misled ok! Job-changing is hellalot of pain. Imagine going through the search process all over again, worrying over the bread-and-butter issues, having to know new people, and adapting to a whole new work culture. It's really not easy, I'm sure you know. With age catching up, you think I enjoy this? No way! But as usual, those who know me enuff know that it's hard for me to just make do. Making-do is not me. I'm a Go-getter, and that's why I'm a go-getter who has achieved nothing much till this day...hehe..

For the purpose of updates, I've tendered (with no exact plans next except to wait for a more suitable job). Not that I thick-skinned but my resignation triggered off a mutiny of exodus. The company lost nearly 50% of my team. My designer tendered. My direct boss tendered too and he was there for barely 1.5 months. GDI! He broke my record ~ I was there for 2 months ok! Leaving the job by end of the year was something at the back of my boss' mind but me leaving caught him off-guard and he expedited his plans. You know why? Cause my absence will have resulted in his loss of a defence line. See lar, for all the nonsense I am, I'm such an important person to so many people ok!

The remaining team will be facing a hostile take-over by a woman I've so fondly nicknamed the "hyper-ventilator". I must give her thumbs-up for her long-windedness (yes bud, you are not the worst) and thumbs-down for being such a stress ball, or a ball of stress to be correct.

I'll be leaving behind a good team but f**ked-up organisation as a whole. Good luck to my mates who have made my short stint a little bit more bearable. My relationship with that puddle of water shall remain purely as customer-seller. I'll win them BIG one day.

By 18th April

Find a job,
And stop the hop.
Throw the letter,
Move to the better.

Start afresh,
Make a dash.
Give my best,
While having a rest.

Pick up zest,
For next big quest.
It won't take long,
To right the wrong.

Idiocy at Work Can Kill

My point is, I survived. 1st week, that is.

For someone who is highly instinctive, restless and spontaneous like me, overcoming bureaucracy takes big discipline and a lot of patience. I'll try.

And thank gawd for weekends. Life simple joy for me is a long walk, some vocalisation of grouses, a few Mayday songs and watching my money grow nano-millimetre by nano-millimetre so that I crawl closer towards my dream.

走出去不一定有路.但双腿和意志必须在人,事和物为我铺好地的时候继续坚强有力往前冲.

My soul is once again cleansed.

Lucky 7

I'm having a blog block. But all my darling readers, it wun take long that I regain my mighty typing prowess. Cos I'll be saying goodbye darn soon to that creepy institution where glass panels fall off the building like how humpty dumpty crashed down the wall and toilet doors collapsed like the downfall of dominoes with a huff.

Quick report on the first 7 days of my New Year:

01 // It Started With A Kiss.

Ooh...I'm pleased to announce that I spent my New Year's Day with lanky, cranky, cutie Zheng Yuan Chang on "It Started With A Kiss"! Totally crappy drama but I like!

02 // Problem-Based-Living


Had a hard time working with idiots. May all idiots vanish, to the deepest of gutters and the stinkiest of sewers.

03 // Leaving Problem-Based Slum
Made a decision to resign this coming Friday. It's ok. I'll be employed soon.

04 // The Call
Finally! Someone noticed the shining resume. To this recruiter - you've got balls, eyeballs ah! See ya on Tuesday.

05 // Eason 一神
He doesn't need a studio to record his album. Just dub over at his concert - Eason is pitch/beat/'live' perfect!


DWPers at the concert.

06 // Prince Ashin
I got to know a new fren who's a fan of Mayday! And she used to like a guy who looks like Ashin! And of cos I picked up on the word "used to" and asked her to pass him over TO ME.

07 // Retail Therapy
With so many sales going on and an incidental bonus from my kind employer, it's simply impossible to resist the lure of consumerism. Oh Money God, pls include a bigger payout package for me in your budget 2007. Thanx loads in advance.

Whoever says 2007 / the year of Pig gonna be good, is absolutely SO RIGHT.

Break-up, Screwed-up, Fed-up

Haven't been blogging much recently. With the braindrain that I go through as a result of unbelievably long journey, incredibly KNNB boss and disgustingly morbid work system, I seriously dunno how I can enjoy a thunderstorm of inspiration poured upon me during the 2-month break.

The last word at the last line leads me to the first topic of this entry - break-up (lame lead I know). Ah B had his galfren for a day and the poor guy is now back to square one. To cut his long story short, the gal's brother is also apparently interested in Ah B who is as straight as an unbent iron rod. The gal backed-out as a result. Ouch... the guy-gal relationship is already tough as it is. Can all those in the forefront of the gay movement NOT COMPLICATE matters further for us innocent linear-minded folks?

Then there's our Ah Geok who beat us all DWPers in getting a marriage proposal! The guy's so confident that she's THE one without even having the need to date her. Geok, share the secret c'mon ~ HOW ON EARTH DID YOU HAVE HIM SO SPELLBOUND? Oh yes, I just realise this anecdote doesn't qualify as a break-up. Never mind lar har, this is not primary school compo. I can write as out of point as I like. Anyway, you know the school I'm teaching in right now says there's no right or wrong answers mah (see how well I've learnt...)

As for my poor Ah Bud who is lamenting over love loss (not quite a break-up since there was nothing in the first place), please ganbatte neh! Love don't come easy but as I always say, we deserve better! How not to when we are oh so Pretty, Brainy and Sassy?!

If it's any consolation for the sagittarus, this week's horoscope reads "Don't wallow in smokescreen relationships that wun last long - sober up!" Sorry Ah B and bud, I can't help but laff when I read this in i-weekly. But I swear I only laff a little. Really!!!

My screw-ups are still on the same complaint - BAD CAREER CHOICE! The more I hear of the system and the advocates of the school at all the brainwashing sessions, the scarier I think this whole thing is. THIS IS A CULT. It's a farking cult! Ok, I'll stop being whiny on this. But just to let you know, I feel very cheated that my workplace has no great boyfren / husband prospects to offer me in compensation. Boohoo!

All these said, I'm fed-up with the situation as it is now but I know Minty didn't have things better. Tsk tsk....I've got low threshold for bad workplace and this is bad. I never learn to have patience. When will I ever learn? By the way, my driving test's this Friday. Wish me luck.