An Episode of Sam Soon

Feel a little piognant, a little moved re-watching My Lovely Sam Soon, featuring the piano scene.

Sam Soon's take on love is simple and straightforward. Love needs not be decorated by big words or tall ideals.

And then I wept.

I have buddies

Today marks the start of some real action in preparation of Runway's finale on 30 Sep 2006. And despite being a rather lean set-up, we've got quite loads to clear! More on this in my Runway's blog to be set up real soon.

Anyway, I should be in frenzy state now. My trip's a couple of days away but I haven't done research for my F&E days in Shanghai. I haven't packed my luggage (+ my ma's). I haven't changed money. I haven't worked out a checklist. I haven't mapped out my handover tasks for work. I HAVEN'T DONE A THING. Ok, I digressed. Back to the topic.

Everybody has friends. But I have buddies. And my buddies have me. We banter about our sexless lives. We egg each other on when a romance prospect sounds remotely suitable. We support each other emotionally, intellectually and physically. We never feel bored in each other's company. We consistently dress with chemistry. We laugh at insiders' jokes which are most likely baffling to others. And we have lots of patience for one another's idiosyncracies.

Please be very jealous.

Wishlist 28 – Part 2

37 days to 28. 7 more wishes.

8. More interviews and ultimately land the job @ TP.
9. A great trip to Shanghai / Jiangnan.
10. One last gathering at the attic.
11. Smooth closing at Runway.
12. Bud’s bro’s awakening.
13. Smooth and safe experience for my bro at NS.
14. Another 3kg off.

My Karmic Effects

Having lived nearly 28 years now, I'm now more convinced than ever on the truth in Karma. What goes around comes around. Everything that is happening to me now is the fruit (rotten or sweet aside) of the seeds that I've sown.

Used to think XYZ is a freak, still think she is but...but....our relationship might change after tmr! What an irony! Lesson learnt: be nice to all, think no less of people's capabilities and go see her without thinking too much of the hypocrisy of our friendship.

I made a boy cry when I was 9. I called him a sissy and look where I am now? Unmarried, unattached and homophobic. That cry-baby is perhaps happily married with a cute wife and 2 kids and drowning in bliss.

I am cursed by the "Keep in Touch" jinx. None of the boys who had said that to me ever kept in touch. I've been cracking my head for a reason and I think I hit the bingo! It's all because I've said similar statements to some other people and never really meant them. So those whom I've cared for to contact me didn't fulfill their promise either. *Baaaaaaah......!!!*

Ever critical of people, I've lost count of how many passer-bys / acquaintances / TV stars / friends I made fun of. And this I'm quite sure attributed to my inability to lose those extra pounds (esp those off my butts). Have you heard heaven's jealous of the all-round talent cum beauty? I happen to be talented and pretty. And these recent years, I'm all-round.

The divine powers must have figured that my mother has suffered enough fools with my complaints against her obnoxious ways. In turn, I'm transformed to someone with maternal instincts so strong that even a friend over the cyberway proclaimed I reminded him of his mother. I shower people I like with motherly care and now aim to be rated PG by hand-holding young(er) people and act as their Parental Guidance, away from home.

Someone tell me how to sow the seeds of good karma, so that i get:
1) The man I want?
2) The job I desire?
3) The good life I so honestly deserve? :p

Tangled In Love

He tells me he likes her and how she is not moving in tandem with him for a life he wishes for them both, without realising that I used to like him and now only likes him a little and wishes so hard not to see him anymore so he will get out of sight out of mind, until he becomes a stranger who used to be a friend because of circumstances not because we were meant to be and then things will be restored to norm where he'll have his own life and me my own, and I'll steer clear like how I steered clear every other time and move on to where and what is rightfully, faithfully and truefully mine.

I Saw The Sign

I saw the sign. And it opened up my eyes.

Minty said for things and changes to happen to me, it has to happen to others around me first. I'm all hands-up for this.

I'll do a recount:
1) Cheryl tendered. One less burden.
2) Ben got a new opportunity, albeit he having 2nd thots now.
3) The office chair I sat on broke. And it's the newest among all the chairs.
4) The two polys advertised, inviting my type of calibre to apply.
5) Some time ago, my driving instructor pressed me to change my driving test date from 23 OCt to Dec. If I had not changed, I would have missed the test as the initial date clashed with the poly's first day in a new semester.
6) And today, my external hard disk where I backed up data threw some tantrums and demanded for disk recovery treatment.

Call it self-fulling prophecy but I think destiny has a way of performing miracles. Everything happens for a reason. Every reason calls for faith. That things will be alright. That I will be good.

i'm on dream high

it feels so good.
to be on dream high again.
now, what the hell is that?
dream high, i define, is a state of the mind when you feel so high, so charged up to go after your dreams *duh!*

well, the worst for this period is over and the sense of relief that came over me was so strong I must say it's awesome.
Gonna start another blog and I shall call it "awayfromrunway", and see if I'll do my decision enough justice and live it up well.

and oh yea, life was good for me last week with a presence detox. Ban all negative energy!!! The right man for me is the man who cheers me silly! And wansui to concerts! The Superband concert @ expo was good though the breaks in between did cool the fervour just when we got into high gear.
And then there are the look-forwards in coming weeks:
1) Finish up Princess Hours (a little draggy but still a very worthy production)
2) Submit all my applications for lecturer positions (oh pls grant me a hearing + the job you folks at the poly...I so want this I can't imagine settling for my second best now)
3) Preparation for my Jiangnan/Shanghai trip
4) The wrap-ups @ Runway
5) my birthday!!! ~ potentially without XY :( but the other gals will more than make up for it

Uhoo! I'm on dream high!

I Am Madagascar?!

You're Madagascar!

Lots of people don't really know anything about you, making you
buried treasure of the rarest kind. (Yes, I may seem transparent but truly, I'm an enigma which unscramble only for those deserving few)

You love nature, and could get lost in it whenever possible. (Ok, I love nature but I'm not too sure if I want to get lost in it.)

You're remote and exotic, and the few people who know you
value whatever they share with you a great deal. (I'm not too sure if I'm remote. But I'm certainly not exotic, just alternative!)

For some reason, you really like the word "lemur". (Er....some kind of animal?)


Take the Country Quiz at the Blue Pyramid

an ending to every beginning

The law of life dictates that there is an ending to every beginning. Sometimes it's a natural course of event, as with the stipulated curriculum for school. Sometimes it's in the hands of the voyager, to decide the destination of the journey.

My flights servicing career will be making way for my take-off to space soon. It's been a great 5-over years. It's been a humbling experience, to learn what makes or breaks me and where I'm still lacking. Ultimately, it's been a pleasure.

Couldn't thank all those who have made this journey possible enough. Now, help me round up with a nice period.

highest high / lowest low

P used to ask, "What's your highest high and lowest low for today?". Nice way to count my blessings and thrash those rotten moments, I thought. Nice way too for concluding the day, emptying my negative thoughts and tucking away the good stuff somewhere in memory bank.

So,
My highest high for today: Finding out by chance that MayDay's Final Home DVD is out today and catching glimpses of that super duper concert in Taipei.

My lowest low for today:Feeling a tinge of betrayal of my trust on someone. Feeling lost about my whereabouts. And then there's C's departure - reminded by the email I sent to her when she first joined on board and the Jeff Chang's song @ Visma the very moment I set foot.

But,
I'm grateful for my 2 buddies who've been around for more than 1/2 of my entire life. Your love will see me through. As it always does.

answer in the riddle

Looking.Out.Very.Eagerly

Guess what I'm looking out for.
Clue: find the answer within the riddle.

Random Thots about Anything

CL has tendered her resignation and there are only 2 more weeks to go before RC is down to just a team of 2. Argh...it's not going to be easy for the next few months but we'll pull through I guess.

I've also made a decision to put the business on hold again once the office lease is up this year end. Provided there's no new great account by end October to hold me back, that is. I need a break from this draining madness of unmotivating projects, reflect upon what's going to be next and take the chance to replenish my depleting savings, top up my cpf and meet new people! Was talking to Daffy 2 nights ago and she commented how interesting it is that my long vacation is "going back to work". Hurhurhur...after been there done that twice, work does give security and takes my mind off the stress of profit and loss.

So what work? I'm looking at the option of lecturing in ITE or a polytechnic. Wanna feel how it's like being surrounded by young hopefuls glowing with aspirations for their future. Or the job as an office manager who basically looks after the day-to-day running of er....the office....sounds fun to me! Salary expectations - $3,800 at least ok! Potential employer look out! This is one great candidate not to be missed ;)

Updates on my crushie. Like a reformed junkie who's eager to kick off her habits, I can't wait to declare myself a clean bill of health. I'm 97.88% off my addiction..the 2.22% is slowed down by inevitable interaction. Anyway, I've lost big interest on him who doesn't have enough interest for me in the first place. And also the blah-blahs on I deserve better, the best in fact. Hahaha...the reasons I have to find to save some face :p

Wishlist 28 – Part 1

I’m 3 months away from my 28th birthday on 1st Oct. Ha! Who’s afraid of the big 3 approaching? I’m just so scared that I couldn't get rid of the demons I struggle with at this point of my life. While I’m not super rich, I couldn’t care less for materialistic gains on my big day. In all seriousness, I wish for these 28 happenings as I inch closer to celebrate, what I hope will be a day I find peace and passion once again.

1. A definitive career direction. I’m very talented and I know. What's a brainful of potential when it’s not tapped on and channeled to the right stuff?

2. Get that big blog project going. No, not this tiny personal bulletin that I’m talking about. It’s that big big blog project with big big ambitions.

3. Re-embrace sports. Climb Mount Faber regularly! Cycle! Badminton! Whatever that moves me.

4. Pass my driving first time. I’m quite a motor-moron but I hope to scrape through like how I survived MassComm’s studio / technical tests.

5. Seriously consider writing my Taiwanese style script. I got some great random lines now…Read this: 我找不到非爱你不可的理由，但却有很想和你在一起的念头。Great line eh? Remember, you read it here first.

6. Sing on beat. What’s a great emotive voice without the discipline of good rhythm?

7. Find love. Love for what I do. Love for what I like. Love for who I am. Love for someone who reciprocates and returns as much.

Dedicated to the Azzurri Fans

I had a little time
And I decided to delight my "long-suffering" Azzurri fan buddy
With a super duper loud talisman, no less
To bless the unlucky Italians with great lucky charm from the goddess of mercy



And now that they'll be up against the Germs next
I shall humbly request blessings from deities all over (across religions and all geographical boundaries)
To bestow a heavenful of power + luck on the blue army.
March on you guys!



MAY THE BEST TEAM WIN.

a little progress everyday :)

A little progress everyday
to get you out of my head.
So it won't be myself I hate
I guess the yearning will abate.

A little indifference each time
to accept you didn't mean a dime.
So what if I'm back on the find?
it'll just be a fun joke over my inconspicuous grime.

Now I've got a whimsical rhyme
to mark the passage of my silly pine.
I'm strong, I'm great, I'm still as fine.
The right one will come along by twenty-nine.

Songs of My Time

Songs define the moments of our lives. I attempt to put together a list of 10 that has moved, thrilled, soothed, mersmerised or irked me.

1. Tanya Chua’s 陌生人: it’s a song that I just feel for. Hmm…

2. Sometimes When We Touch: my 2 crushies’ fave song back then. What do they say about falling for the same type of guys? Eeee……yucks.

3. Richard Marx’s Right Here Waiting: my first song performance on stage. Lame tune, lame dance and I had to do it because one loser pulled out in fit of spite.

4. Candy Lo’s 垃圾: my must-sing number at KTV. No one does this song better than me…wahahaha.

5. Nearly all of Mayday’s Songs: I Love You 无望 is an awakening on how awesome Hokkien songs can be, 志明与春娇 is my classic all-time favourite, 时光机 brought tears when I first heard it on radio soon after I’ve lost my grandma, 别惹我is war declaration’s best theme, 我 is a reflection of my dissipating passion for pursuing life’s many dreams, “Gong-Lang” is a reminder that there’s still hope.

6. Forrest Gump Suite: introduced to me how music can be so stirring, even without lyrics.

7. Diana Ross’ If We Hold on Together: Our last performance on stage as a class back in secondary school. How are you gals doing?

8. MLTR’s Out of the Blue: 25 Minutes, Wild Women, etc are mostly bad grammar but Out of the Blue is one nice, romantic tune which deserves pardon on poor English.

9. 刘文正/童年: is so apt when it comes to reminiscing the fun childhood days.

10. 梁文福/细水长流: celebrates friendship and brings to memory how much I’ve grown since CGS’ days.

Why Don't I Have A Boyfriend?

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Forward

No doubt that you've got game Just a little too much game for some guys Maybe it's just that some men like a challenge Or they think they're not challenging enough for you!

Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend?

This is RIDICULOUS? How can I be too forward when I don't even have the guts of the modern woman to say "I like you"???

What Kind of Soul Am I?

I Am a Bright Star Soul

Like a shining star, you have no trouble being the center of attention In fact, you often feel a bit hurt when all eyes aren't on you You need to be number one in everything, no matter how trivial And it's this ego that both hurts your confidence and helps you acheive You're dramatic and a powerhouse of pure energy You posess a divine quality or uniqueness that's hard to define A natural performer, it's likely you'll become famous in some circles. Just learn not to take everyone's reaction to you so personally! Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul and Prophet Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

What Time of Day Am I?

I Am Sunrise

You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary. You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward. Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts. All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.

What Time Of Day Are You?

i'm moving on

10 Things I’m Resolved to Do:

1)Stop reading blogs that I shouldn’t read, ie, those with almost lack of meaningfulness, zilch entertainment or enrichment value but just providing random info on some stuff that should not bother me too much now.

2)Work out! Oto Trimax’s great I tell ya. And with some work out, I should be on my road to better fitness.

3)Continue my search for lost passion and find it real soon. I hate this kind of me –directionless, not putting in my best, not realising my greatest.

4)Tidy up my bedroom. It’s quite a mess now.

5)Pass my advanced theory and driving @ first attempt.

6)Learn keyboard after I’ve passed my driving.

7)Give good thoughts and map out the future of my business. It hasn’t picked up significantly from last I left and returned.

8)Organise a trip with the gals later this year.

9)Get moving on a self-funded, personal interest project.

10)Get over my distraction completely.